This past year has been filled with extraordinary things. I have learned so much about motherhood, being someone’s mama, myself and the fact that K might be “clingy” for a lil bit longer! I know that attachment takes time and he immediately took to calling me Mama (Amaye) but goes through spurts of worrying that I am not going to come back. In the early days of our family, he was CONSTANTLY underfoot. I couldn’t leave the room without him looking for me. When it was Mah-tah Mah-tah (night night) time, he would only go to sleep if I lay with him and he could be holding my hand. He would ask, “Mama! You still there?” right as he was about to fall asleep, knowing that I am still holding his hand and he could feel me. Sadly, for many months, before he would fall asleep, I would, so my bedtime went from around 10/1030 to around 730/8!!!
When dropping him off at school, we go through out cadence of, “You listen! (and he nods). You behave! (and he nods). I love you forever (and we hi-five). And Mommy…” (and he says, “…always comes back for Kwali!”) and then we hug and kiss again! I want him to know that what I say, I mean!
So, fast forward 14 months! K was still sleeping in bed with me. Now, mind you, it isn’t like it’s cramping my budding social/active sex life or anything! Puhlease!!! It most certainly isn’t, but I also know that he needs to feel secure and know that I am trustworthy. One of those ways is by knowing that, even when he sleeps in his bed, I am still here!
And for the last 3 weeks, he’s been a champ!!! We go through a bedtime verbal dance (similar to that of when I drop him off at school), but he has seemed to really be doing well. He climbs into bed with me at around 530 AM, but I am ok with that. He’s been falling asleep in his own bed and staying there! I give him a treat in the morning for being Jeg-e-now (brave). Like with anything…it’s a process, but we seem to be on the right track! Thank ya Jesus!!!
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